Wow. One Year Later.

I woke up this morning and realized...EXACTLY one year ago, today, I walked across that stage at Pepperdine University. Wow. I definitely thought my life would look a lottt differently than it does right now.

I've been through sooooo many ups and downs. I've had people enter stage left and leave just as quickly at stage right. Some have entered and definitely worn out their welcomes. Some exited voluntarily...much to my disappointment and amazement. Others I dismissed...but reluctantly brought back in the scene.

Throughout all of this, only ONE thing has remained. God has been with me EVERY step of the way. Blessing me. Consoling me. Comforting me. Man. It's crazy how He loves me better than I love myself. Respects me more than I respect myself. He sees the best in me and truly believes I deserve the absolute best. I tell ya, there is nothing like my Father's love.

In less than 1 month, I will be embarking on a NEW journey/chapter in my life. I will be headed to Oxford, MS to start graduate school. (Wow. I still don't think it has really hit me yet.) I will be working on my Master's in Curriculum and Instruction (Education), while teaching full-time in Greenville, MS (heart of the Delta). My dream to be a math teacher has finally come true. Wow man. It's slowly but surely sinking in.

I am SO THRILLED about this opportunity. God has really, really, really, really, shown favor because LORD knows I didn't (and probably still don't) deserve his amazing grace and mercy. I promise to be a good steward of the gifts and talents of which God has blessed me. From the cake decorating, to State Farm, to the Census, to MTC...God has been blessing me like no other.

I just continue to pray that the Lord is patient with me and doesn't write me off yet. I know there are times I'm blatantly disobedient. And we all know, you "obey"/submit to the ones you truly love. I have been inconsistent in this...and I'm ashamed.

He makes everything perfect in due time. I trust him.


~mCn


Patience is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without acting on annoyance/anger in a negative way; or exhibiting forbearance when under strain, especially when faced with longer-term difficulties.

Business

I'm sitting in class....bored as hell. I think it's hilarious that I can think of 1,000,001 things to do/work on while in class, but as soon as class is dismissed.....I can't think of anything to do. LOL. I took this "Are you a Bad Student" online quiz the other day, and I scored an F. Needless to say, I'm kinda over school and I am sooooo ready for a break! Maybe I'll get rejuvenated over spring break.



Side note: The guy sitting next to me breath smells like...UGHJDSAIUDSGD. OMGN! I'm about to pass out. :(



I know Maria, my twin from Freshman year, reads my blog so the following message is for her!!

One of my main goals for this semester is to "make it count!!" We keep saying that we're gonna hang out, have dinner, workout, meet, etc. and we haven't! :( We only have 10 weeks left of school, and I can't guarantee when I'll be back to Cali post-grad. IF I come back. I really want us to spend some QT together. I understand that you're married and usually really busy, but make time for your twin! I'll soon be long gone, and I don't want to leave California without us reconnecting...even if it's just ONCE before I leave. I'll stop here and send you the rest in an email...but you get my point. :(



I miss you Maria!!! =( (*tear tear*)

Dream Team

It's funny. The older you get, the smaller your circle of friends become.

I'm sure everyone can relate to having 586 BFFs in elementary school. Those friendship would "end" over the smallest tiff, and 15 minutes later...you're BFFs again. Well...things are way more complicated now and I am definitely learning the hard way.

"Be careful what you ask for...because you just might get it." I've been praying and praying and praying and asking God for the courage, strength, and wisdom to accomplish the goals I've set for myself and he has been revealing things to me daily. Now that I have answers, I don't know if I'm prepared to take action and make such bold decisions in my life. One thing that God has revealed is that I have to eliminate certain individuals in my life before I can receive the blessings he has for me. It's hard for me to accept the fact that everyone in my circle shouldn't have that privilege...

I have quite a few friends here (at Pepperdine) that I label my BFF, BFFF (Mo, lol), etc. But recently, my BFFs have not been acting like such. If I didn't know any better, I would mistake some of them for haters, imitators, or just plain enemies. These ppl do not have my best interest at heart and I'm sick of the fake BS. I could go on and on and on and give tons of examples of my "friends" acting selfishly, deviously, and spitefully but none of those details matter. I'm in the process of rebuilding my Dream Team from the ground up.

Will you make the cut??